If at first you don't succeed, try reading the directions.

celine lent me her cd of Evanescence. i was listening to it on the way home. great album. really sad songs...

*sigh* yesterday, i tried to stay close to my best friend. i failed. miserably. its like...the more i try to hold onto her...the more i lose my grasp...

and then i see her enjoying herself with our other friends - smiling, laughing. it hurt. it still hurts. why cant i give her that anymore?

i'm starting to get scared...