I've never been the praying kind
But lately I've been down upon my knees
Not looking for a miracle
Just a reason to believe
-Savage Garden

things i've learned in chem enrichment class (that have nothing to do with chem!):
practice makes perfect. but nothing can be perfect. so why practice? -the class after ms. patty bombards us with exercises.
good triumphs over evil - if, and only if, good fights. - bob ong in ang paboritong libro ni judas, which i was reading during ms. patty's lecture, ooops.
it is through fire that we are purified. - sir mitra, discussing how glass is made.


i'm beat. i'm starting to look forward to that long plane ride. i intend to doze the whole time. although... its not just sleep i need. i think... i need a break... from this place. of course i'll still miss my friends like hell.

yesterday, joanne and i were walking around during recess. we passed by the music room. she found herself wanting to play the piano. we asked for permission and it was granted. she pulled out the chair and let loose. vannessa carlton's thousand miles. i leaned against the side of the piano... singing the lyrics under my breath. the moment was peaceful. i remembered sophomore year, and maecy whipping out her guitar whenever we had a free period. she'd teach me a little sometimes. we dont do that anymore... and i've completely forgotten the chords.

last night i was i was slumped against the bathroom wall, talking on the phone and trying to keep a friend from...sleeping. she was so tired... but i didnt want to let her have the rest she wanted. it seemed... selfish. but i just couldnt let go. its the way its always been. its not the way it always has to be. i was never meant to be loved. i've accepted that. bullcrap.

and to my angel: the world is at your feet. i dont want you to throw that all away if i just happen to give up. i'm not saying i will. i told you... as long as you believe in me... i've got a reason to believe too.