Now we dont live
We exist
We just run through our lives
So alone
-Savage Garden

[insert curse word]

i'm feeling very cynical today.

up at 7am. dragged myself outta bed and threw myself into the shower. [insert curse word] i forgot to turn on the heater. so i took a bath shivering the whole time. dress. prep. pack. off to the train station. all aboard to washington DC.

tita malaine (my mom's sister) and auntie baby (my mom's aunt) were supposed to meet us at the station where we got off. wala pa sila dun. bumili muna si mom ng ice cream para sa sarili nya. and a milkshake for me. brain freeze! after half an hour of waiting for them to find us, we decided to go find them. it took another half hour for us to do so. and we spent yet another half hour trying to find their car coz they couldnt remember where they had parked it. [insert curse word]

nahanap rin namin. my jaw dropped. a white mercedes benz [insert curse word]. pasok kami sa loob. leather seats [insert curse word]. we drove out of DC into virginia to tita's house where we would stay. pasok sa loob ng bahay. unang-una kong nakita ang 50-inch screen tv [insert curse word]. we were to stay in the basement. baba kami. parang may bahay sa ilalim ng bahay. ang laki! there are closets inside the closets. akyat ako sa taas. exploring. pasok ako sa kwarto ng pinsan ko. that was no room. that was a [insert curse word] library.

we went out and went to a couple of stores coz auntie baby wanted to buy some pasalubong for her daughters and grandson for when she returned to her home in vegas. mom bought me a pair of shades.

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i want. to go. home. [insert curse word]