Sige, 'pag kasama ka naman
Kitang kita ko ang ating kasiyahan
Sige, 'wag na nating pigilan
At 'di magtatagal tayo ay liligaya
-6 Cycle Mind

happy birthday, sop.

sarap ng yellow cab diba?
americans should name their asses!
wohoo!!!

and the demon said let there be fun.
and there was fun.

Let's go (let's go)
You want it (you want it)
Then you better get ready cuz this what you gonna get
Anyway you want it
We can take it to the WINDOWS to the WALLS (or better yet)

We can take it to the FLOOR
-B2K

i felt pity for all those who had to listen to going at it on the videoke machine.
and for the butterflies.
it was almost freezing. i still jumped into the pool. and that was really freezing.
and in my hurry to get dressed for the our dance number after that, not only was my shirt on backwards, it was inside out. bwahaha, oh well, all in good fun. take it to the floor!
but i somehow wished i didnt feel like i was standing on the edge.
and i'm really gonna have dad buy me a friggin' drum set and see how the guy next door likes waking up to that. that or a shotgun.

Pare ko, meron akong problema
Wag mong sabihing na naman
-Eraserheads

good lord, i got the shock of my life. i never saw that coming. guess i was only considering one way. wow. i just might break up a marriage.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
-Gary Jules

"i can tell its them, even from behind, even at a distance. thats how many times i've seen and watched them turn their backs on me."

All by myself, I know that I stand here alone
All your lies they feed me
I'm stronger now, stronger now than I was before
There's no way you can hurt me
Move me
Stop me
-Bamboo

jan 1
i dont think i'm going to really bother with resolutions anymnore.

jan 2
the thought of school the next day makes my head hurt.

jan 3
theory: first day of school after a break... is never really the best of days.

PROVEN.

jan 4
the idiot texted me after scaring the daylights out of me the day before.

i'd been thinking... was it really worth grieving over him? a friend... a good friend... it was stupid, but...

i've never really thought of it as wrong. i mean, shouldnt a person do what he wants with his life?

whether its stupid.
whether its selfish.

trying to save someone who wants to die may just be as selfish.

i dont know.
i dont know if i want to care anymore.


jan 5
i came home in alex' clothes.
lol.

jan 6
and the hell months begin...

jan 7
i miss the old times.
i'm going to miss these times.

but i'm glad... every once in a while... they can be relived.


jan 8
i was stuggling to be able to stay awake and up on my two feet. i didnt think going to the debut was worth it. but i thought wrong.

maecy met me at the entrance at starbucks to make sure i didnt get lost. i was... fashionably late, haha. jo and cami had started eating when i got there, but chez and therese joined me in line for the buffet. we could only go for one round using only a rather small plate. we managed. we got kicks out of the video of aisne's pictures, and the speeches of the '18 whatevers', the dance performance. then aisne took time to call on those who were really special to her. she missed out on someone. in my opinion anyway. i kinda wanted to punch her face in for that, but i wasnt gonna do that at her own party. so instead i left my table and pulled up a chair next to that someone. some waiter then served this alcoholic drinks. yummy. a band started to perform. maecy, loren and i transferred back to my old table to join cami, jo, chez and therese. good music! more drinks!

after four glasses, i could feel some heat building up in my veins. so i dragged loren with me to starbucks to counter the drink and talk. and laugh.



jan 10
its times like this when i really wish i had wings.
even if they were demon's wings.